What i know about myself

Its been an interesting month with work situations that resulted in a first and final warning that i need to be good for next 3 years so i do not get fired.

I have realised that if i am:

- Stressed i want to sleep
- sick i want to eat, sleep n take my meds
- angry i want to fume n talk about it
- sad i want to find a comedy
- read a book i want to like the characters
- watch a movie i want enjoy it
- depressed i want to laugh n find some positives
- frustrated i want issues to be resolved
- in i dont care mood i will laugh while watching action movie like kings circle, also best time for me to sort thru my hoarding
- happy i want to enjoy the moment
- having a day off stay home in my pjs

I think i am at the angry stage of grief as stuff lately really gets me mad. Hopefully it will move to next stage. As i know month before mum passed i was in denial stage, i griefed stuff i would no longer do within her once mum was in paliative care.

I have two great ladies i can talk work n life with which is great. Also will be seeing a psychiatrist soon so maybe will deal with issues month of may in brothers house that came to emotional surface.