Single Saturday Night Blues

I'm one day and 35 minutes away from turning 35.


Count your blessings one by one
I'm feeling better all the time
when life is trying to bring you down
be grateful
be thankful
an upbeat spirit will occur
a smile will come
such fun it has become
to count your blessing one by one :)


Dreams update:


Travel destinations -

1. Europe -  England, Ireland, Scotland, France, Switzerland, Germany, Italy - I'm slowing paying this off and goal is to do it in 2016
2. USA - New York, California, Chicago - aim to do it in 2017
3. New Zealand - I will be going on a cruise with my mum in 7 days

Personal goals

1. Lose 30 kilos - I'm currently 102.9kg
2. Get married - Praying regularly
3. Have 2 to 3 children - needs the above goal to occur first
4. Form a group of friends or community of support - have been referred to connect group yet to attend a meeting as they had a busy September or I've been told
5. Just enjoy the moments :) - Laugh regularly at work and home

Feeling better than when I started writing the unedited version of this post. Thank you God and Holy Spirit. Good night

Dreams and life

Currently watching Love, Rosie it reminds me of One Day starring Anne Hathaway.


Hopefully though it does not end the same way.


My mum's been talking a lot about dreams and I usually do not remember any of mine.


I have images in my mind of what I wish were happening in my life. Like a husband or boyfriend kissing me on the cheek or listening to me talk even if its just nonsense. Or being pregnant but feeling beautiful in his eyes. Combining our furniture in our house. Buying a house with a granny flat at the bottom of the back yard. Strolling the streets of London, Paris, or country lane holding a guys hand. Looking at each and having a good laugh.


The main dreams I seem to be achieving are travel.


I've had dreams for years:


Travel destinations -

1. Europe -  England, Ireland, Scotland, France, Switzerland, Germany, Italy - Hopefully I will achieve the Europe dream next year as I think it will be incredible but also that God has something incredible for me
2. USA - New York, California, Chicago - aim to do it in 2017
3. New Zealand - I will be going on a cruise with my mum to New Zealand this year

Personal goals

1. Lose 30 kilos - been a goal for a long time, though it looks seems achievable this year I'm currently 105.4kg compared to 107 to 112kg
2. Get married - will take a lot of faith as I have a list of traits and I'm not very social but I have a mustard seed of faith it may occur. Also my dad seemed to know me better than I know myself but not more than God. He passed away 2 years this may. But I think god has been training me through work to be able to chat with guys now to find an outlet to apply that training :)
3. Have 2 to 3 children - needs the above goal to occur first
4. Form a group of friends or community of support - will be hard to achieve as I guess I find it hard to trust people or just have not friended the right people.
5. Just enjoy the moments :)

My Biggest fear is that I never get to Europe or that I end up alone with not children.
I say if regarding marriage but my mum corrects me with when.


But with a mustard seed of faith and praying these goals to God nearly every night it will happen.


From


Scraproni