Its Christmas

I love this time of year. There are lights displays wherever you drive around town. There's singing and people spend time with each other. People treat each other better. It's the season of hope. I still have presents to buy. Yet its the excitment of not knowing what your getting. I just love this time of year!

Think about what your doing otherwise you will lose your car keys!

Today I was putting bags of clothes into a charity clothing bin that was in front a its store. I'd had a late night so my brain wasn't really thinking about what I was doing. I had three bags and I had the keys in my hand while I was put these bags in the bin. And finally I realised I put my car keys in the bin with the bags. I tried to jump up in the bin and to feel around and see if I could feel my keys nothing. I'm starting to freak out as I'd locked my car. So here I was with no keys but with a locked car. Did I mention I'd left the lights on. It's night time. I suddenly felt an overwhelming feeling OHHHH NOOOO! My mind is not communicating and connecting thoughts, I had my phone in my pocket yet I did not call anyone. I was just trying to see if someone can help me get my keys out. I looked on all the windows of the store to see if there was a number I could call to try and get my keys back. Finally I could home and someone brought me my spare keys. I came home and wrote a two letters requesting that if they find my keys can they call me. One for the bin and one that went under to store door.
If I'd been thinking about what I was doing I would have put my keys in my pocket or just used one hand to put the bags in the bin. I could have saved myself a lot of hassle.
Think about what you are doing as you may lose something that you need in the immediate future. Save your self the hassel of trying to get it back. Just think.

One of those days

Ever had one of those days, well I've had two in about 4 days. It's like my brain has an off button and its not till someone verbally turns it on very loudly do I realise that i've done the wrong thing. I think I need a holiday. A change of scenery on my own where I can just explore my surroundings in my own time. Have not time restraints or anybody telling me what to do. Then come back home and face reality again. I need a major escape my my current surroundings.

Waiting for the train and get to know you neighbour

I love have my own space. I feel like I'm waiting for the train that will take me to my next stop. Yet it's still hasn't arrived. I have my bags packed and yet the train still isn't coming. I've sort of started to separate from things. Either its from boredom or that it's just that people who I connect with aren't in town at the moment. I'm no good at just talking about simplistic things. I like topics that often have a bit of meat to the conversation. Also that tells you something about a person. Often people don't like to tell you stuff about themselves ... I'm not sure. It might be cause they are not willing to invest or take a risk. Which shows that they really are not truly being real. Shallow people and I don't usually connect they find me too threatening or maybe too strong and opinionate. I guess I was just raised to and found out that I like being me and yet people don't always get that. I talk too much to complete strangers due to loneliness. Last time I just laid out my feelings I had someone be really harsh in return I just needed somewhere to just express how I was feeling. So I really like this blog where I can just write down my thoughts.

Encouragement

Tonight I was encouraged at my young adults group to do 2 things
1. To encourage myself
2. Encourage others.

This means I have to discard the negative and to look for the good. It's so easy to just be negative and look at the bad. Instead I need to grow and focus on the good. Also its easy to be down on myself instead I need to think okay that was bad and try and learn from what I did and not do that next time.

Lord help me to think and to look for good things and to grow in this area and to pray for the bad that it was be improved to be something good instead. Amen

What are people really afraid of?

Fear often causes walls to go up. It creates discoloured outlooks on life. It restricts. So why do I let it control me. Cause to face my fears so I've been told by Lisa Bevere makes me fearless. God wants me too face my fears so that I can grow and live. Cause its better to live so the preacher doesn't have to lie at my funeral (Peter Irvine).

Fear makes me lie and i'm a terrible liar and it makes me feel worse. God help me to break free of these chains and not to keep putting it off.