Chasing Life

There's this show called chasing life about a young woman who discovers she has cancer but her life has just gotten good. She's meet a guy and she's getting  noticed at work. Tonights episode shows her mum just taking over. The ending life she yells at her mother I'm an adult and its my body. I need to know there's a chance of a normal life once the treatment is over.


It touched a nerve and made me cry.


I started watching it I guess to discover the journey that my dad went through during his treatment and was away for 3 months. Plus I guess father's day is coming up in two sundays time and I just want to have a happy milestone. Sort of a stepping stone to all that follow for the rest of my life.


I've made a promise that three weeks time when I'm not working on a Sunday that I'll attend another church. As I have not been to my other church in 8 months and there has been no follow up from anybody. Except when I go in to count resource I get a lot of 'I haven't seen you in ages'. Its like unless I'm standing in front of you these people have not noticed I have not been there. Which is sad!


I finally went to Orlando which was a blast not having to be mentally alert to other people's needs. But I may have annoyed my mum with my carer tendencies. She told me to just switch off my carer mindset :)


I went to Disneyworld, did a dayspa, went to walmart, walgreens and michaels.


My mum wants to go to Orlando again next years but I told her I would meet up with her in New York :)


It's a dream to aim for and also New Zealand to make reality bearable. :)


I feel way better.


I love you daddy! (Please give him the message God)

2014 Goals and Dreams

Been having a hard month with work running through my mind. So decided to just enjoy life this year. The big and little moments. To have things to look forward to.

Opportunities to enjoy life:

• Trip to Orlando in August - Achieved & had a blast doing it
• Go to Disneyworld - check
• Go to Walmart - check
• Go to a spa - check
• Have heighless sky diving experience - maybe next time
• Easterfest in April - Get autographs from Shonlock and Evermore plus spend some time with mum and my sister  - Achieved

• Find exercise I enjoy doing at least 30 minutes a day - had the flu twice and both times have tickle in my throat will start in two weeks (9 Sep 2014) doing Zumba classes again :)
• Finish Cert IV in Disability by end of year - I have 1 month to get this done before 11 Apr 14 - aiming for RPL Process - harder to complete than I thought due to administration inconsistencies, may end up re-enrolling, discovered I'm bad at asking for help for myself but I want to finish this as a legacy since my dad gave me this last gift and because he would want me to have this qualification.

Here's to enjoying the moment and keeping the hope alive.


I updated this on 25 August 2014.