Random Crying and Cancer

DVDs and books use to be my safe place to escape but since my Dad has cancer it's no longer safe.

I was watching a show and two friends hugged and I started crying.

I was reading a book and one of the characters Dad had cancer and I started crying.

Why is cancer destroying my safe place so I can handle life and now my safe place is gone. Books no longer interest me or truthfully I don't want to read about death which is pointless, see people hugging.

I don't want my Dad to die of CANCER and I want to be able to hug him.

Hugging my dad is always fun and he always tries to dance with me and make me laugh.

I'm crying as I'm writing this and I want it to stop.

I need a new safe place to escape from reality! And I'm up for ideas!