Chasing Life

There's this show called chasing life about a young woman who discovers she has cancer but her life has just gotten good. She's meet a guy and she's getting  noticed at work. Tonights episode shows her mum just taking over. The ending life she yells at her mother I'm an adult and its my body. I need to know there's a chance of a normal life once the treatment is over.


It touched a nerve and made me cry.


I started watching it I guess to discover the journey that my dad went through during his treatment and was away for 3 months. Plus I guess father's day is coming up in two sundays time and I just want to have a happy milestone. Sort of a stepping stone to all that follow for the rest of my life.


I've made a promise that three weeks time when I'm not working on a Sunday that I'll attend another church. As I have not been to my other church in 8 months and there has been no follow up from anybody. Except when I go in to count resource I get a lot of 'I haven't seen you in ages'. Its like unless I'm standing in front of you these people have not noticed I have not been there. Which is sad!


I finally went to Orlando which was a blast not having to be mentally alert to other people's needs. But I may have annoyed my mum with my carer tendencies. She told me to just switch off my carer mindset :)


I went to Disneyworld, did a dayspa, went to walmart, walgreens and michaels.


My mum wants to go to Orlando again next years but I told her I would meet up with her in New York :)


It's a dream to aim for and also New Zealand to make reality bearable. :)


I feel way better.


I love you daddy! (Please give him the message God)